CONVICTION

If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it.

Monday, January 31, 2011

--- It's new year time ---

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!
WISH EVERYONE
A HAPPY
HEALTHY
PROSPEROUS
NEW YEAR OF 2011

新年快乐
万事如意
身体健康
步步高升

~  I LOVE YOU GUYS  ~

I'm on Big Deal 2nd time !

The diet plan is really cheap. It doesn't cost you additional time or money. In fact, it saves lots of money and time. And it provides better health and look of yourself!

The day after tomorrow would be CNY eve so I guess I won't be able to follow the diet. But I still decided to do it even it is not going to be complete. 

The previous one was considered a failure because I only lost 1 KG compared to 10 pounds as it should be. But I've said I'm not going to give up unless I've met the target. So I'm giving a 2nd try this time :) I don't really care if I would lose 2 KGs or even 1 KGs provided there would be weight loss. I deadly incredibly want to get rid of fats in my body! 

I believe in consistency and perseverance =P 
So I'm going to live a much healthy lifestyle :)
NO JUNK FOOD
NO OILY FOOK
NO SOFT DRINKS
LESS DAIRY PRODUCTS 

I have to take good care of my own health before I afford to heal people :)

Keep it up, buddy :)

It's going to be CNY !!

Today is a wonderful day I guess. Well indeed it is supposed to be.
I woke up and realised it's already 11.30am. I took 30 minutes to get up but I wasn't dreaming as usual. I was doing some rough plans for today.

It's new year and I have to BE INTO IT. Because at least that is my festival. So at least I have to tidy up my room thoroughly. Bathroom is to be cleaned....this and that.

So these are the tasks I'm going to conquer today :


  1. Tidy up / Clean bedroom
  2. Clean bathroom
  3. Clear up 7 shelves in study room for dad
  4. Mop the entire floor of ground floor
The most important task is to work out the plan.

Plan your work & Work your plan !!

Michael Barimo Whistling ---- amazing !!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

MY personality type RESULTS =P

Percentage breakdown of MY results:

Introverted (I) 71% Extraverted (E) 29%
Sensing (S) 64% Intuitive (N) 36%
Thinking (T) 65% Feeling (F) 35%
Judging (J) 73% Perceiving (P) 27%
ISTJ – Duty Fulfillers and Examiners

Career relevant traits:
• Will work long and hard to complete tasks to completion.
• Faithful and loyal.
• Stable, practical and down-to-earth
• Do not like abstract theory, unless you see the practical application
• Natural leaders
• Prefer to work alone, but work well in teams when necessary
• Extremely observant, you take in facts via your senses and store them internally
• Vast inner store of facts which are used to understand problems which are encountered in your lifetime
• Deep respect for facts and concrete information
• Make decisions objectively, applying rational and logical thinking
• Dislike change, unless you are shown it´s benefit in a concrete way
• Have strong opinions about the way things should be done
• Appreciate structured, orderly environments
• Have very high standards for your own and other’s behaviour.
• Not naturally able to pick up on other’s feelings
• Can accomplish almost anything if you put your mind to it.

You are a quiet and reserved person who seeks security and peace. Your sense of duty can create an air of serious around you, and this duty, combined with your honesty and integrity means you can be relied upon to complete tasks independently.
You have great respect for facts, which you acquire through your sensing thinking mind. Although at times theories and ideas which are different to your own perspective you may have difficulty in understanding, once you have been shown the importance of the concept, you will go to all lengths to support and work to complete your duty.
As an ISTJ, your strength which translates into your career, professional and personal life is your perseverance. As an ISTJ you can accomplish almost anything you put your mind to with dedication. Your career path may be most successful when you have the ability to use to your excellent skills of organisation and concentration. ISTJs fit very well into executive and management roles within the corporate/business world.

Possible Career Paths for the ISTJ:
• Business Executives, Administrators and Managers
• Accountanting and financial work.
• Auditors
• Maths Teachers
• Mechanical engineers
• Technicians / Dentists
• Police and Detectives
• Judges
• Lawyers
• Medical Doctors and Dentists
• Computer Programmers/specialists and System analysts
• Military Leader

My dream : To become a specialist in the medical field. Yay~
Cheers :)

Check it out at  http://www.career-test.co.uk/

Hell-like freedom

It's now the time when I'd say I have nothing to do. I'm free all day. It sounds wonderful to be idle, doesn't it? But it actually appears to be the worst time of my life. Since the day I learnt how to walk, to speak and to play, I've not been that free. My time was always occupied with lots of activities and I'd never have to think of what to do the next minute. But now it seems that I've lost my mind. I feel like I am doing something but in fact I'm not. I never update my planner anymore. I never write post-on notes to remind myself about things to be done. I'm so free that every night before I sleep I couldn't tell myself what I've done throughout the day. 

Time is very precious. I've understood this statement since I learnt numbers. But it doesn't apply to my life now. My life is full of nothing but freedom but I feel nothing but misery. This is not what I've ever expected. 

Life should be happy and contented. People are happy with their lives when they are contented. People are contented with their lives when they have aims and goals to be achieved. 

I look at myself in the mirror and I see a zombie that hasn't slept nor eaten for ages. Innocent eye bags under the eyes are enormous as if they are filled with liquid. The dark circles underneath are horrendous. It's not an exaggeration to use this word indeed. They are covering almost half of the face. I nearly couldn't recognize the person in the mirror. I put on my glasses thinking that those additions to my face might not be so obvious. And then life goes on, the same way.

I couldn't see a clock nor a watch in my room. Time is not a matter to me anymore, it seems. All I'm conscious about is when I feel hungry and I feel tired. And now I thought of my dream. I want to be a doctor. A specialist. A surgeon. And I'm living this way. It's worse than miserable. I'm almost lifeless. 

A doctor? None of the things I do looks like I'd become a doctor. And doubtless I can't carry on to live like this. It's saddening and painful. I'm going to make changes. Lots of changes. And I'm going to change for the better, if not, for the best. 

Ym is back. You're going to be freed from hell-like life :) which seems full of freedom but not in fact. 

这是什么文明?

马来西亚政府不知道在多少个星期之前规定了所有百货商场每逢星期六不发塑料袋子。对于爱逛街购物的马来西亚人而言或许在短时间内无法适应并且造成不便之处。但是马来西亚人尤其华人其中一项最显著的特性就是有超前的适应能力。
怎么说呢 ?
非常简单。其实也很可爱。
我跟家人昨天到Tesco办年货。真是人山人海,摩肩接踵。我们一家一面走就一面把想要的东西都往推车里放。过了1个小时,推车几乎要满了,才突然想起那天是星期六。星期六不发塑料袋呢。
怎么办呢?
这个时候,马来西亚人通常很会变通。Tesco不发塑料袋子,但是盛干粮的塑料袋照发。这时你就会看见大家的推车里除了装满货物,也塞满食物袋。食物袋可不也是塑料袋吗?
星期六不发塑料袋子这种环保政策,其实只适用于文明昌盛的国家。很笼统吧?但这并不重要,因为大家心知肚明。

Thursday, January 27, 2011

If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it

Interviews sessions are over---ALL.

It was 1.20pm when I reached IMU. Guess what? I didn't take a cab, nor did I walk to the campus from the Bukit Jalil bus terminal. Instead, I took the LRT. Although it was only one station to the IMU campus, I felt extraordinarily excited because that was my very first time to travel 150 miles away from home. I felt so great...thinking that I'm now a grown-up young lady :)

2.15pm
I was asked to enter the glass room where 2 interviewers were already sitting there. I greeted both of them, shook hand with the man sitting on the left who is an Indian doctor and then the Chinese lady sitting on the right. My heart was throbbing. Not very hard but I could feel its pulse. I told myself to calm down and just be the best.

1st question asked by the doctor : So.... You've heard about IMU? Would you like to tell me your good characters and qualities?
I started talking.
Everything started nice and steady until the lady interviewer started asking questions.
What makes you an IMU student? Why do you want to be a doctor? What do you need to be a doctor?
So I just answered. I told her a doctor needs lots of passion.
She asked, What is passion to you?
And I was like....stunned? I shouldn't have said that.

What is passion to me actually? Passion is love. It's more than love actually.
According to the Merriam Webster's dictionary, passion means the followings :

a : ardent affection : love
b : a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object, or concept
c : sexual desire
d : an object of desire or deep interest

But at that moment what should I have said?

To me, a doctor's job is nothing relaxing or full of freedom. It's about sacrifices. But I'm ready for it. In fact I've thought about it for years. Why a doctor? Why a Western doctor? Is that my interest? Really? Do I have passion for healing / caring? How much do I have? And I'd need infinite amount of passion to keep my desire of becoming a successful doctor growing, if not remains as much.
A doctor's job is not like any other profession. It's not a 9 to 5 job. Doctors aren't tied to the desk the whole day. To me a doctor's job is a lifelong stuff. It's like a lifelong learning process because health issues change from time to time. It's always related to a well-being's life. It's not like a business that deals with money. Instead, it deals with so many lives that are non-renewable. It means, when it's gone, it's gone forever. That's what makes a doctor's job so great.

However, very honestly, I really think that being a doctor is wonderful. People don't look up to a businessman or a lawyer. People do look up to a doctor. Well of course it doesn't mean that I care so much about my reputation but it makes a difference to my life, for sure. And I always feel good to help people. Actually people feel good when they help people because people appreciate it. Or it's because people respect them. But I was thinking, if that is my job and people who see me as a doctor, they think that they are getting service from me because they are paying for it so eventually they don't really see me as someone who heals them....and that would be a whole lot of different story. If that were the case, would people feel great to be a doctor? This is extremely important because that would be my future. And if I'm not prepared well, things are going to be a mess.

I don't care. I'm just going to be a doctor because that's my dream. No matter how tough it is I'm going to strike for it. As people often put it, If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it.

Life's tough. Because it's life :)

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Hah~

no big deal.
It's not a deal at all. Because someone's not keeping promise.

3 days passed and what's the result? Sounds a little too bad.
Lost 1 kg? it's less than a pound :(
I asked mummy about it and she said she faced the same problem too when she did that few year ago. She said I'd have to do it for some more times. When the diet triggers the metabolism in my body, fat would be burnt.
So I am not going to give up even though this time is considered as a failure. I'm going to continue doing that after a few days as I'd have to meet up with some guys next Tuesday. Have DimSum. Well I can't just sit there pretend to be full ~

Best wishes ^^

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Big Deal....2

Yay~ 
Successfully  I've proceeded to the 2nd day of the diet plan. That means it's almost completed half of the deal!
How wonderful :)


Today's meal is :
Breakfast

  • Black tea / coffee
  • 1 slice toast
  • 1 egg boiled/poached
Lunch
  • Black tea / coffee
  • 5 tuc/Ritz crackers
  • 4 oz cottage cheese ( Well, I replaced it with cheddar cheese because cottage cheese is rare here...and very expensive..LOL)
Dinner
  • Black tea / coffee
  • 2 oz carrot
  • 4 oz Broccoli 
  • 4 oz ice-cream (vanilla ONLY)
  • 2 frankfurters ( pork or chicken ONLY)
Best wishes :)
GET RID OF MY FAT!!!!

Sweeties :)

Friday, January 21, 2011

MY FAVORITE SONG !!

YOU RAISE ME UP
JOSH GROBAN



I love Josh Groban's voice since I knew what music is.
It makes me strong when I'm weak. 
It makes me soft when I'm stubborn.
It has always been with me at times when I triumphed over obstacles :)

Just to share :)

struggled...? Not really.

Frustrated YM,

I was just deciding whether to apply for the Fudan university. 2 months ago I was so sure that I was going to give it a try to apply for the face-2-face interview because I thought it would be a learning experience for me. But now that only 4 days are left before the deadline approaches, I suddenly decided not to apply for it. I don't understand why. But something beyond my control just happened to make me do so.

Rationally, as I thought, one of the possible reasons is that I wouldn't prefer to study in China as my seniors are saying that China isn't a very commendable place to study. Well, my decision isn't depended merely on that. As I did some analysis then, I thought even if I were to apply for Fudan-U, and if I wasn't accepted by HKU or Taiwan-U, I would very probably choose to study in IMU. I 'm pretty sure that one year ago I wouldn't make such a decision as I had been thinking that studying abroad is always better than local. But things changed eventually.

Although I'm not very confident that I'd be chosen to enroll to HKU or Taiwan-U, I still pray hard for it as I really really would like to study there. Though it doesn't mean that IMU is not commendable. Just that the previous happens to be my first choice. Well, I now have decided not to apply for the interview of Fudan-U because I really think that it's going to be a waste of money and time. And I'm not going to do it just to 'gain experience', as I thought last time. Because the effort I put in would be far more complicated and exhausting than the experience that I'd gain if I were to attend the interview.

My next interview from IMU would be on next Thursday. I am going to prepare myself really WELL because it is very important as it would be my backup plan!

.....I still hope hope hope so much that I accepted by HKU or Taiwan U!!! They are my dream place to pursue my studies!!!

Please ~~~~~



With hope,
Yimin

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I'M HOME. SAFE.

That was awesome. Driving on the road. Wow.  Gorgeous. Wonderful. Fantastic. Horrendous =p 
Actually my fingers sore a lot as sweat of nervousness slipped through the pores on my skin, keeping my fingers damp at all times and they were holding onto the steering wheel so hard that I couldn't believe that my arms sore now! 
3 hours of my first experience on the road past extremely fast. Unexpectedly. I was of course very joyful because to be able to drive on the road has always been my task-to-be-done a.s.a.p. . Feeling the coordination between my left hand, right hand, left foot and right foot, it luckily happened that it seemed running automatically. Like everything was beyond my control. But yet when I tried to stepped on the accelerator harder, the little Kancil groans. And my left foot quickly stepped on the clutch to change gear. Only then I realize I was REALLY on the road. With other drivers. DRIVING.

Things happened the way I expected and were so far so good. 
I'd be very glad when I collect my P License, which will be very soon :)

Driving....a car?

Yay~
I'm going to learn how to drive on the road! Isn't that amazing? I can't believe I'm old enough to drive on the road. Hopefully everything goes fine.

2pm. 15 minutes to go. And Mr. Goh, the uncle who teaches me driving is going to pick me up from the house and my most exciting journey will then start.

Ho Ho~ Supreme excitement that overwhelms me at the moment is too much to be described with words. I am 19! and less than 2 months I think, I'd be driving on the road and would be ON MY OWN! How wonderful it sounds. But don't worry.....I'm NOT going to be the next dangerous driver. Hehe^^ I'm going to keep myself AND the car safe from any injury.

Bye~ will be back soon. And I'll share with you my first-time-on-the-road-experience soon.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I AM BACK

Yesterday night I just returned home from Kay Elle. What a wonderful trip.
I nearly sprained my ankles and cracked my knees. It was extremely tiring to walk from one LRT station to another Monorail station. Well, it was the cheapest choice so we had to do so. But definitely it was overall very exciting as it was the first time I followed my senior travel around Kay Elle this way.
3 days alone we have gone to Midvalley Megamall, Pavilion and KLCC.
And on the 2nd day I attended the IMU Open Day. I find IMU a very commendable place to study. The atmosphere is wonderful. Especially its library which looks so new and so hi-tech, it actually creates a great atmosphere for students to study. So I guess if I wasn't so lucky to study in Taiwan, IMU is not a bad choice too:)
I'm looking forward to attending the IMU interview. It must be challenging XD


And I'm very eager to know the results of my application :)
but earliest is late March ... and I shall suffer from Insomnia before the date.
Don't worry though, I'm definitely going to make good use of my time !

Friday, January 14, 2011

DREAMed


Image: ZhangJiaJie, Hunan Province, China

There were butterflies in my stomach when I took this picture.
Standing high at one of those sky-scrapers, I tried to breath in as much air I could. It was refreshing and very cooling. Once I imagined myself living on top of those pillars. I didn't feel scary like others. I thought that would be gorgeous.

I wouldn't hear cars horning in the daily hustle & bustle life in the city. I wouldn't have to do look at the time from time to time because there won't be electricity supply. I wouldn't have to get foolish updates from FB which mostly are nonsense. I wouldn't have to keep in touch with my friends and my teachers as most of them are so untrue. Life wouldn't be tiring. As I wouldn't have to do what I don't like. And surely I'd do things that I've longed for. I'd do bungee jumping, I'd do skydiving, I'd do parachuting. Amazing things. But I probably wouldn't stay there for the rest of my life. I would forget of the materialistic life for perhaps just a short while. But that would be more than enough to regain my energy to live again. Not that I'm dead. I need to regain lots of energy to continue the journey of life.

...............................

And that's one of my sweetest dreams. To have dreams of my own that I don't have to be responsible with them. And it always hurts when I come back to reality, they have gone long time ago.

BE GRATEFUL TO YOUR LIFE

It was more than 2 months after I finished my major exam in high school and I've been busy doing the applications of different universities. Probably I'd pursue my future studies in either Taiwan, Hong Kong or Malaysia. That's all. 


There's been one thing that keeps me thinking. It's nothing important nor is it meaningful. It doesn't make much changes to my future plans no matter how much I think about it. It's because I'm doing the 'thinking' thing myself -- it's in my head only. Nobody knows it and I don't think it's so necessary to tell others.


Since the day I started to collect information about my future studies, I've been wondering if I'd have the chance to study abroad to expensive places like the UK, Canada, US or Australia. The thought didn't really affect any of my decisions but it happened that it was like a worm living in my head. Sometimes it bites, sometimes it crawls and creates an itchy feeling.


Well I am not a multi-billionaire's daughter. I have to admit it. But actually I always know this. I do know this very CLEARLY. But the worm seemed to corrode my brain cells every time when I heard that my friends would study in places I mentioned. It wasn't envy I'm quite conscious. But the problem is, my friends are not millionaire's child too. But they afford to do that. 


That I've been analyzing --- wanted to know the reasons so much. 
And I found that it probably is the mentality thing that works things out. Their financial source. It's not really how much you keep in your account book. It's what your parents think about it. And they might be a little luckier than I that they have parents who don't mind working OT every day and get a few more part time jobs to make ends meet. In this context it seems that they are lucky. But when I really think about it. It doesn't really seem so.


I don't know if I'm actually comforting or convincing myself or what. It's just a very basic analysis I did. But it's true.
1 million and get an MBBS degree from any UK or Canada or Australia university.
300K and get an MBBS degree from any of M'sia universities.
150K and get an MBBS degree from any of the Taiwan universities.
That's inclusive of the cost of living.Don't talk about the life experience first. That doesn't affect your future life really that much.
See? I don't understand why people have to make their parents work like cows just to get you a cert from the university. TO NO OFFENSE. I'm just trying to say that if your parents afford to send you to overseas, you should be grateful. But like me, I got the chance to study abroad too. So be grateful too. 


We are lucky people. Many people don't get to further their studies. So be grateful to your life. Appreciate what you have.