So it's the last day of the semester.
I had a hard time over the weeks. Yea, it was all about exams, studies, and exams. And after struggling since Day 1 of study break, the two days of exam finally ended yesterday. I spent the rest of the day with the Junior's orientation and went for Mamak session as usual. It was great to be in their orientation. It stroke me when I just got to realize that MY orientation happened almost more than sex months ago but everything was like they just happened. Time flied, seriously. It's like before I could even gasp for a mouthful of air, everything has ended.
So what do you think you have learnt throughout the first semester in the medical school?
Hmm. For the first semester, we did the Foundation Block. We had Biochemistry, Anatomy and Physiology, Microbiology, Parasitology, Pharmacology and Pathology. They aren't that difficult actually. But the volume is killing. I think I like Parasitology the most, partly it's because I know the most of what I should which appeared in the slides. Anatomy was fun too. But the only thing is that time is so running out that I couldn't afford to spend time reading. I like Anatomy very much actually but I'm one kind who cannot learn without touching and feeling. If more time is spent in the Medical museum with the models, I'm sure I can be the top scorer in that.
Hmm.. other than that, the worst thing that I'd say is Pharmacology. I totally neglected its existence. I actually skipped the whole thing, in other words, I went in for exams with zero knowledge on that. It's mainly because I didn't have the time to even touch on it. Was that a problem in time-management? Perhaps, but I did study from morning till midnight everyday during the one-month study break, or till my brain was saturated with memorizing work, whichever comes first. Ah. Maybe I hadn't be more of a professional medical student yet? But what to do when your body says "that's enough for the day" when you actually need to spend 20 hours reading and stuffing in diagrams and Greek names into your head everyday for maybe one whole month or even more than that, like 3-4 months before the study break? I would have either jumped down from the building or ended up talking to the air in the mental hospital.
I'm still seeking for the most efficient way to learn. In fact, I have never stopped modifying my style of learning till I find the best. There are a lot more to learn.
In these coming 3 weeks of holidays, I can't afford to waste it. I need to re-plan, energize, study/learn new subjects...there are so many things that I could do to live everyday to the fullest. I must not waste even a single minute on meaningless activities because right after this, the race begins. And it would never stop for even half a day for replenishment till the next exam comes. And that exam would determine whether I stay or go. I can't afford to get kicked out of the school.
All the best.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Pre-exam syndrome
At this very moment when the sky is raining non stop and my eyes are aching like they haven't been hydrated for ages, i really hope i am not alone.
28th would be the first time ever medical exam in the whole of my life.yes you are right, less than two weeks to go, but i have a whole huge pile of pharmacology,anatomy, immunology and pathology which i havent't even touched a bit on it.
Since the very first day od study break, which was like slightly more than a week ago, or actually even months before that, i have been studying everyday. Well but of course, it wasn't anything hardcore like what i'm doing now. But i seriously haven't given myself a day of rest at all since the first day. But somebody pkease tell me why i still cannot finish my notes. I want to be a great med student so badly. I wonder what is the problem.
At this precious moment when i'm poking on every button on my ipad, my heart, my body and my entire soul is far too complicated to be described in words. I can't tell any sensations i'm feeling anymore. Perhaps i have been already too worried, too scared, too numb that i'm almost paralysed to the surroindings and everything i'm doing. But i still keep on wondering, am i the only one feeling this or it's normal?
Somebody, just anyone, please let me know.
I can't afford to fail, or to give up on anything. This is what i told myself since the very first day of becoming a medical student.
I need to succeed. Even in little things.
It's the first exam, which takes up 45% of the total sem 1 and 2 examinations, but i'm already gasping for air everyday. Is this normal? I don't want my first semester in the medical school to be so miserable. It's just but one semester out of the ten, but i'm already utilizing all my energy to the max.
I need power. I need life.
All the best in your exams.
Trust me, you are going to be a great doc.
With great love
28th would be the first time ever medical exam in the whole of my life.yes you are right, less than two weeks to go, but i have a whole huge pile of pharmacology,anatomy, immunology and pathology which i havent't even touched a bit on it.
Since the very first day od study break, which was like slightly more than a week ago, or actually even months before that, i have been studying everyday. Well but of course, it wasn't anything hardcore like what i'm doing now. But i seriously haven't given myself a day of rest at all since the first day. But somebody pkease tell me why i still cannot finish my notes. I want to be a great med student so badly. I wonder what is the problem.
At this precious moment when i'm poking on every button on my ipad, my heart, my body and my entire soul is far too complicated to be described in words. I can't tell any sensations i'm feeling anymore. Perhaps i have been already too worried, too scared, too numb that i'm almost paralysed to the surroindings and everything i'm doing. But i still keep on wondering, am i the only one feeling this or it's normal?
Somebody, just anyone, please let me know.
I can't afford to fail, or to give up on anything. This is what i told myself since the very first day of becoming a medical student.
I need to succeed. Even in little things.
It's the first exam, which takes up 45% of the total sem 1 and 2 examinations, but i'm already gasping for air everyday. Is this normal? I don't want my first semester in the medical school to be so miserable. It's just but one semester out of the ten, but i'm already utilizing all my energy to the max.
I need power. I need life.
All the best in your exams.
Trust me, you are going to be a great doc.
With great love
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Enjoyment with liz's
This is my second time reading EAT PRAY LOVE - elizabeth gilbert. The experience is totally different. Now i'm reading it only a few pages every night (god knows when i will finish the book), but i'm savoring its every word, digesting and enjoying the after-taste. The words are so tempting. This is the first time ever i have experienced the soothness and caressing warmth brought by the beauty of liz's words. Her every description of events, choice of words etc.
Most of all, it makes me think. WHAT IF i were in her shoes? WHAT IF i had been stranded in the middle of endless affairs and complicated, heartwrenching divorce? These are all so unimaginable but when i try to imagine...the sensation is tense.
One thing i like so much is the way she describes Italian guys wheb she was in Rome. I would never forget...
'to my taste, Italian men are ridiculously,hurtfully,stupidly beautiful.....they are devilishly attractive, or cruelly handsome, or surprisingly muscular.' Awhh...it makes me want to go to Italy so much!
My every night is never lonely ever since The day i got mesmerized by the beauty of its language.
Once again, EAT PEAY LOVE. Thanks mum fot getting me the book.
Most of all, it makes me think. WHAT IF i were in her shoes? WHAT IF i had been stranded in the middle of endless affairs and complicated, heartwrenching divorce? These are all so unimaginable but when i try to imagine...the sensation is tense.
One thing i like so much is the way she describes Italian guys wheb she was in Rome. I would never forget...
'to my taste, Italian men are ridiculously,hurtfully,stupidly beautiful.....they are devilishly attractive, or cruelly handsome, or surprisingly muscular.' Awhh...it makes me want to go to Italy so much!
My every night is never lonely ever since The day i got mesmerized by the beauty of its language.
Once again, EAT PEAY LOVE. Thanks mum fot getting me the book.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Mid of january, updates
Hi there, i'm here again. You wish you wouldn't have to see me hanging atound here?Not really, i actually do like to see you writing. Because you are doing reflective writing most of the time.
Gahh. I have been looking for a word to describe my feelings now. But no, i haven't found any, and i don't think i would find one. Because what i'm always feeling is just too complicated to be written in words. So, the nearest word to express is, "gahh",with a double-h.
Dear yimin, exam is soon.and you know that very well. And i don't need a blog to reassure myself about that. Now you have so many things to do, piles of lecture notes, like 196 or more lectures that i've had in the past few months? Yes you are right. I don't care if you end up psycotic or not, or probably you are already a schizo, you still have to face the fact that you gotta complete them ALL. I'm 20 this year, and the number of exams that i have had since i knew how to write is uncountable so i do not expect myself to describe what i sould be doing already now.
Yimin you're a big girl now.
Remember what Steve Jobs said? STAY HUNGRY,STAY FOOLISH. Although at some point you are a fool, i mean, seriously a fool, but you still gotta learn to apply this concept and practice this in your comng "exciting"life. Because that's the only way you can trabsform yourself into a not-a-fool.
Ok, craps ahead, i'm not gonna waste time tapping on my ipad. Now SHUT UP, or, SHUT THE F**K UP if you like,and DO WORK. DO THE F**KING work. Okay. See you soon, PSYCHO.
Gahh. I have been looking for a word to describe my feelings now. But no, i haven't found any, and i don't think i would find one. Because what i'm always feeling is just too complicated to be written in words. So, the nearest word to express is, "gahh",with a double-h.
Dear yimin, exam is soon.and you know that very well. And i don't need a blog to reassure myself about that. Now you have so many things to do, piles of lecture notes, like 196 or more lectures that i've had in the past few months? Yes you are right. I don't care if you end up psycotic or not, or probably you are already a schizo, you still have to face the fact that you gotta complete them ALL. I'm 20 this year, and the number of exams that i have had since i knew how to write is uncountable so i do not expect myself to describe what i sould be doing already now.
Yimin you're a big girl now.
Remember what Steve Jobs said? STAY HUNGRY,STAY FOOLISH. Although at some point you are a fool, i mean, seriously a fool, but you still gotta learn to apply this concept and practice this in your comng "exciting"life. Because that's the only way you can trabsform yourself into a not-a-fool.
Ok, craps ahead, i'm not gonna waste time tapping on my ipad. Now SHUT UP, or, SHUT THE F**K UP if you like,and DO WORK. DO THE F**KING work. Okay. See you soon, PSYCHO.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
A day of my student life
The day usually starts when i start studying. Usually,i'd have two morning lectures,and after that i'd go home, sometimes after having a quick lunch with my mates, and have a nap of about thirty minutes or so. Then the day begins with studying.
It's been five months studying here and stayng alone without my parents. No matter how much i'd want Tondeny,but somehow it turned out a fact that i have been suffering from a so-called homesickness, which i thought wouldn't happen on me,as i always thought how much a well-disciplined and independent girl i am. Anyway,the good news here is that i think i have overcome it better now, that i do not think of going home all the time now. I have never told anything about this to either of my parents or even my brother,because it somewhat sounds ridiculous and...stupid, for a twenty year old med student having problems with homesickness.LOl.
I have been going for swimming everyday for almost a week now. It just started that i feel much better now when i can focus better on my work. You see, the feeling is just too torturous and horrible to be described when you want to do something but you lack of patience and concentration. And i think there is some relation between homesickness, focus and going for swimming everyday. Overcoming homesickness made me more organized and momentous in doing my work, which leads to better focus on my work, thus i have better reason to go for exercises after a long day of studying.
Exam is soon. I would definitely want this growing momentum and power to sustain in my will. I want to succeed and become a good doctor. I want to, that is why i am doing what i need to do now.
It's been five months studying here and stayng alone without my parents. No matter how much i'd want Tondeny,but somehow it turned out a fact that i have been suffering from a so-called homesickness, which i thought wouldn't happen on me,as i always thought how much a well-disciplined and independent girl i am. Anyway,the good news here is that i think i have overcome it better now, that i do not think of going home all the time now. I have never told anything about this to either of my parents or even my brother,because it somewhat sounds ridiculous and...stupid, for a twenty year old med student having problems with homesickness.LOl.
I have been going for swimming everyday for almost a week now. It just started that i feel much better now when i can focus better on my work. You see, the feeling is just too torturous and horrible to be described when you want to do something but you lack of patience and concentration. And i think there is some relation between homesickness, focus and going for swimming everyday. Overcoming homesickness made me more organized and momentous in doing my work, which leads to better focus on my work, thus i have better reason to go for exercises after a long day of studying.
Exam is soon. I would definitely want this growing momentum and power to sustain in my will. I want to succeed and become a good doctor. I want to, that is why i am doing what i need to do now.
Monday, January 2, 2012
2012 BRAND NEW YEAR
IT'S 2012. Can you believe it?
Okay, it's already the second day of January 2012 and honestly I was a little surprised when I found that I just realized it's already 2012! Time flies.
It's half way of the first semester in IMU but because it's a brand new year, I have new year's resolutions for myself.
I always look forward to starting a new year because it always gives me many new hopes and somewhat momentum from nowhere would always drive me crazy working non-stop in stuff I like, which is great, because all I need at all times is ENERGY, endless energy and strength.
Briefly,
I have a number of new year's resolutions
First of all, of course, I would do my best in my studies, and make whatever I'm learning and doing as fun and as memorable as possible, and I am going to go all the way to learn what I'm supposed to know. There's an interesting saying adapted from what jiujiu said, let's say I scored 6 out of 10 in an exam, in other words it means, out of 10 persons, I am only capable of saving 6 persons' lives! Doesn't this sound crazy? Okay, so that makes it one of the reasons I must do well in studies!
Secondly, I'm going to live a healthy lifestyle both physically and mentally. Which means, I carry out physical activities constantly, especially swimming. And, no mood swing is allowed. Keep an eye on yourself, and be careful when you can't help checking your FB account or your phone, it means that you are not clear of what you are supposed to do. Stop giving ridiculous excuses for yourself. Also, PROCRASTINATION IN MEDICAL SCHOOLS IS A SURE WAY TO FAIL is going to be your new study motto as well as your life motto, because at this phase of your life, your life is all about studying, interesting learning XD
Thirdly, which is actually related to the second point, keeping my body healthy in such ways that besides doing exercises, eating more healthy/ aka functional foods and less junk food is very important. If I cannot even take good care of myself, you can forget about saving lives.
In a nutshell, I must learn to live my life to the FULLEST at every moment. I actually worked out a logic, which is very simple and i think if I understand it well, I can succeed my study life XD doubtless.
OKAY, what is lacking in my daily life that makes me bored/in other words, suffer? No TV? No movies? No shopping? No friends to talk to because my housemates are always not around? Nothing to do? Gahh. However, the fact is that, if there is a TV it would be worse because I might watch TV all day and finally end up suffering from guilt due to tonnes of unfinished work. Also, shopping is actually pretty tiring. It takes me at least 2 hours roundtrip to go to the nearest mall, and usually I wouldn't be back after dawn. So, the same bad thing would happen, I would suffer from guilt having the whole day spent not with notes. Next, no friends to talk to? Even when your housemates are around you usually do not knock on their doors and talk to them. So, this is an excuse, a lame one. And then, it's a total joke to say that you have nothing to do. You have tonnes of work waiting for you to accomplish. Hence, the simple reason for all these problems is that you CANNOT FOCUS, which, for a medical student, is supposed to be ridiculous ( although it always happens in poor will people)
Hence, the basic rule to triumph over all the stupid problems is that YOU NEED TO LEARN. TO. FOCUS. IN. YOUR. STUDIES. ONLY.
okay. being long-winded is also a sin in the life of a medical student.
Thus, pen off now, and ...
lastly,
WISH MYSELF ALL THE BEST IN THE BRAND NEW YEAR OF 2012
BE HAPPY
HEALTHY ALWAYS
GOOD LUCK IN
EVERYTHING!!!!
Okay, it's already the second day of January 2012 and honestly I was a little surprised when I found that I just realized it's already 2012! Time flies.
It's half way of the first semester in IMU but because it's a brand new year, I have new year's resolutions for myself.
I always look forward to starting a new year because it always gives me many new hopes and somewhat momentum from nowhere would always drive me crazy working non-stop in stuff I like, which is great, because all I need at all times is ENERGY, endless energy and strength.
Briefly,
I have a number of new year's resolutions
First of all, of course, I would do my best in my studies, and make whatever I'm learning and doing as fun and as memorable as possible, and I am going to go all the way to learn what I'm supposed to know. There's an interesting saying adapted from what jiujiu said, let's say I scored 6 out of 10 in an exam, in other words it means, out of 10 persons, I am only capable of saving 6 persons' lives! Doesn't this sound crazy? Okay, so that makes it one of the reasons I must do well in studies!
Secondly, I'm going to live a healthy lifestyle both physically and mentally. Which means, I carry out physical activities constantly, especially swimming. And, no mood swing is allowed. Keep an eye on yourself, and be careful when you can't help checking your FB account or your phone, it means that you are not clear of what you are supposed to do. Stop giving ridiculous excuses for yourself. Also, PROCRASTINATION IN MEDICAL SCHOOLS IS A SURE WAY TO FAIL is going to be your new study motto as well as your life motto, because at this phase of your life, your life is all about studying, interesting learning XD
Thirdly, which is actually related to the second point, keeping my body healthy in such ways that besides doing exercises, eating more healthy/ aka functional foods and less junk food is very important. If I cannot even take good care of myself, you can forget about saving lives.
In a nutshell, I must learn to live my life to the FULLEST at every moment. I actually worked out a logic, which is very simple and i think if I understand it well, I can succeed my study life XD doubtless.
OKAY, what is lacking in my daily life that makes me bored/in other words, suffer? No TV? No movies? No shopping? No friends to talk to because my housemates are always not around? Nothing to do? Gahh. However, the fact is that, if there is a TV it would be worse because I might watch TV all day and finally end up suffering from guilt due to tonnes of unfinished work. Also, shopping is actually pretty tiring. It takes me at least 2 hours roundtrip to go to the nearest mall, and usually I wouldn't be back after dawn. So, the same bad thing would happen, I would suffer from guilt having the whole day spent not with notes. Next, no friends to talk to? Even when your housemates are around you usually do not knock on their doors and talk to them. So, this is an excuse, a lame one. And then, it's a total joke to say that you have nothing to do. You have tonnes of work waiting for you to accomplish. Hence, the simple reason for all these problems is that you CANNOT FOCUS, which, for a medical student, is supposed to be ridiculous ( although it always happens in poor will people)
Hence, the basic rule to triumph over all the stupid problems is that YOU NEED TO LEARN. TO. FOCUS. IN. YOUR. STUDIES. ONLY.
okay. being long-winded is also a sin in the life of a medical student.
Thus, pen off now, and ...
lastly,
WISH MYSELF ALL THE BEST IN THE BRAND NEW YEAR OF 2012
BE HAPPY
HEALTHY ALWAYS
GOOD LUCK IN
EVERYTHING!!!!
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