Cheer up.

I JUST DIDN'T GET IT

Am I dreaming? Nightmare? 

No, you're not.

Am I mistaken? Maybe you skipped your name?

Nope. You're mind is as clear as crystal now.

So you're not going to be able to study in Taiwan, right?

Yea, exactly.

Okay. I just didn't get it. I wasn't shortlisted. I was abandoned to the 'foundation group'. And I am obviously not going to take it.

Yea, I love Taiwan. It's a wonderful place to work, to study, to live. But sometimes things just don't work out the way we wish. It doesn't care how much we have dreamt for, how much we have wished for. Whatever will be, will be. And now, that's it. 

But don't worry. It's not the end of the world yet. You can't go to Taiwan maybe it's just that because your luck isn't better than those who are shortlisted? Or maybe studying in Taiwan isn't the best choice?

Whatever.

But I always consider it the best choice ever.

Whatever.

What I'm going to do now is what I have to do and I will do it, willingly, confidently, rationally and with much faith.

Okay. I'm very conscious now. I'M NOT GOING TO STUDY IN TAIWAN.

That's it. That's the end of the story. No more dreams, okay? Grow your seeds in some other places XD

Fine. 

Now, the problem is, MANIPAL or IMU?

Are the use of cadavers in teaching very vital? Gosh! How would I know? I'm not a doctor yet. But definitely that sounds much more interesting. 

What about the reputation? IMU OR MANIPAL is better? How would I know! I'm not the judge =(

Gosh. This is GOING TO BE A BIG HEADACHE....luckily there's still time to think about it. Yea, roughly 30 days.

Okay!!!! Cheer up buddy. You're going to be a med student and definitely you're going to be a great doctor. 

Best of luck ;)

Love you very much !

What will be, will be. Where am i going?

It's 3/31 1222 midnight and my eyes are wide open.

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be. 

Dear mother, the future's in my hands and the results are out soon!!
Would I be accepted?Am I? Would I study in Taiwan? Can I? Would I be a great person? Would I be a doctor? A great doctor? 

Que Sera, Sera,

Whatever will be, will be

The future is in your hands,

Que Sera, Sera,

What will be, will be.

PLEASE PRACTICE THE VIOLIN

I AM NOT HYPNOTIZING MYSELF.
I AM NOT FORCING MYSELF.
BECAUSE I LOVE MUSIC. AND MUSIC IS PART OF MY LIFE.
I LOVE THE VIOLIN.
I DREAM AND I WISH THAT I COULD PLAY
LIKE VANESSA MAE
LIKE DAVID GARRET
LIKE SO MANY TALENTED PEOPLE.

SO
PLEASE PRACTICE THE VIOLIN
IT'S GOOD FOR YOU
IT'S FOR YOUR OWN SELF RECOGNITION

YES
YOU'RE GOING TO GET YOUR FINGERS ON IT.

无稽

结果很快就会出炉了，请耐心等待！！

那颗忐忑不安的心啊，怎么就那么不听话呢。

我时常在想啊，其实呢，当医生这个志愿呢在很久很久以前只是一个藏在我心里小小的梦。就像在睡不着的夜晚里我喜欢自己当导演讲故事一样。这个美丽的梦却不知道在什么时候，成了我人生必须实现的目标。

有时候，我可能比较天真。但是我向来认为这世上，只要你想得出来的东西，就一定存在。所以，nothing is impossible 一直都是鼓舞我勇往直前，永不停息，而且让我心中的火炬永不熄灭的无形力量。

3月31日阿。。。为什么等待这个日子的心情竟然比等待统考成绩出炉的时候更加难以平复？

"Every friend is 

to the other

 a sun

and 

a sunflower also.

 He attracts

 and 

    follows."

Jean Paul Richter quotes

Have you not forgotten?

Life's been too meaningless.

I recalled

the time

when every now and then 

I would

look at the needles of the clock

that every second counts

because time is

always

not enough.

BUT now

when I look into the mirror

I see

a familiar face

but a different person

The ticking sound of the clock

has long

been missing

I thought I would

occupy myself 

with meaningful tasks

but 

I don't feel like living

I don't feel like I'm alive

I don't feel like I'm going to carry on

I don't feel like I'm going to 

give in

to the repetition of boredom

and 

meaninglessness.

A future med student?

Yes you see yourself working in a hospital

But you never picture your life NOW

What should you supposedly be doing

time's incomparable

 even with gold

this is what you told yourself

Have you forgotten?

Your dreams. Your ambitions.

Where have they gone?

They have always been there. 

But you

You don't remember them.

Life's just a brief candle

You learnt this before you know time is precious

but yet

you're damaging your candle

without a reason.

九天定生死

3月22日了。思绪还在迷糊中摇晃。飘浮不定的心，像蒲公英一样，任由风儿决定生命中新的开始点。

3月31日那一天，我是否可以落叶生根？我飘浮不定却又充满憧憬与抱负的那颗心，是否可以自信与坚定地在这土地拓展未来？

那个时候，我是飞到远处感受他乡的文化，还是留在本土文化里纠缠不清？我似乎已经走过20个春冬。如果我还未知天命便告别人世，那我几乎已经走过人生的一大半。转过身来，本想翘望我那小小生命给世人划下的小小色彩，熟知那一点足迹实在微不足道，无足挂齿。

我比一般人更有耐心。在这里默默地等待。等待那盼望已久的果实落到我的手中。我不曾希望自己可以成为下一个亚历山大，更不曾想象自己是第二个爱因斯坦。我只是希望自己在这毫毛般微小的生命里，尽力增添色彩。如果有能力，我只是希望可以带给世人多一点的温暖，多一点的笑声。

我是现实的人。但是总是庆幸自己还不至于可以放弃自己的尊严与公德。人道这样深奥的东西我不晓得，只知道它是比自身肉体更为高尚的东西。幸运的是，我生活的环境教育我，这些高尚的品德，不是金钱可以出卖的。

我想当个好的医生。不期望可以救济一万个人。不奢望可以让人们摆脱生老病死的痛苦。但是我只是想，在有生之年，是不是可以出一份小小的力，让人们更快乐，更正面地活下去。

说的总是比做的容易。我还不知道前方的路是什么颜色呢。但是无论多么黯淡无光，这些都不会影响我对于生命的小小使命感。

加油去面对你结果的那一天吧。

你的果实是什么颜色的呢？

只能在这里，衷心地祝福你。

made it !

Let's see what I wrote on my phone on the flight.

3/12/2011    11.17am

It's airbus 330 - 300. For the first time I felt that the air circulation is beter in an Airasia flight. People are sleeping, babies are murmuring and I'm holding my yellow batik shawl in my arms, reacalling the sweet memories in life. I don't like to think abou the bad times I had becasuse it's not going to work for anything better. Sometimes we just have to slow down our pace, forget about ourselves and think of how wonderful life is. And a lot of the times, life is much better and worth more to be appreciated than we thought. Wish everyone on boad a happy and pleasant journey and be all the best =)

13.24

People are walking around.. Going to toilets. Some are waiting some are merely getting their limbs stretched or having oral exercises( i mean chit-chatting okay..) Practically I'm facing the toilets so I'd see everyone who goes to the toilets. Funny actions for some. Some wait at the vacant lavatory but some pushed to open he occupied sliding door of the lavatory. I pretend I don' see but wonder wwh educated people still don't make it a habit to read the label before taking an action. Great parents here. Busy changing diapers of their baby, going to and fro the toilet to wash the water tumblers. Less than half an hour I'd land on Taipei and I feel so fresh.
Best wishes to everyone on board! =)

18.26
I'm now at FuHau hotel near Da An mrt station. Incredibly excited although I'm terribly worn out now. ( Had 1 hour sleep yesterday night) Yea~ I'm going to have lots of fun here! Learn lots of things here! Meet lots of people here! Gain lots of experieces here!

Will keep in touch =) So glad that there's a free wifi here...and a laptop here at the lobby !!

wonderful night!

Friends are great. They may not be able to solve the problems you're facing but they are always there to support. And to me, that's more than enough. My life is colourful but it's of myriads of colours with the presence of my friends. The atmosphere is always filled with endless laughters.

Tonight, well exactly it was yesterday night, it was wonderful.
First was that, Alex brought me to Indulgence. What a fantastic venue! There's 'down-to-zero' probability that we'd be in a relationship any further than old friends or schoolmates, but I did feel romance in the place. I love the atmosphere very much. It would be the best place to ... hug and kiss and whatever best things for lovers to do. And I had Tiramisu and Fudge n Fudge Brownies. I really loved the Tiramisu so so much =)

Next, we had simple dinner at a nearby cafe (Hot Jack) and 7 of us (Liyee,Jason,Karkean,SuitPeng,Choeyeen joined us) had so much fun chatting at the round table. There were so many things to catch up on. Our lives so far, our future, our past....We talked about yellow jokes and funny moments and our personal experience.

I don't expect my friends to always lend a helping hand EVERY TIME I'm in need. But their presence to show their support is more than enough. And they have been great all the while. I'm always grateful to have everyone of them =)

Thank you everyone. =) I'm always grateful and will always appreciate you =)

P.O.I to conquer!!

Yes! 2 more days and I'd land on Taiwan's TaoYuan International Airport!
I'm very eager because this is the first time I visit Taiwan. Also, because I've spent lots of time and energy in doing some researches on the must-go-P.O.I. I'm pretty sure that Taiwan is not just a been there, done that thing =)

First of all, for the 8-day-vacation, 3 of the days we would be exploring the HuaLian county which is Southeast to Taipei whereas for the rest of the time we would be scouring the specialties, foods, shops and everything in Taipei.

I've got a rough idea of how the itinerary works but I'm not going to write everything down --- no point because for sure there'd be lots of variations as it always is.

Below are the P.O.I. to be conquered =)

Historical Buildings
1. Chiang Kai-Shek Memorial Hall
2. Sun Yat-Sen Memorial Hall
3. Shilin Official Residence
4. Presidential Office Building
5. National Palace Museum
6. LungShan Temple
7. Lin Family Mansion and Garden
8. Red castle

Shopping venues ( or Landmarks)

1. TaiPei 101 Mall

2. Eslite Bookstore

3. Taipei Eye ( for an Opera show)
4. Old Streets of Danshui

Night Markets/ ( For food !! )

1. Shilin Night Market
2. Huaxi Street Tourist Night Market
3. Banqiao Tourist Night Market

Yay~
Don't you dare think that this is a piece of cake to layout and categorize them! TaiPei has so incredibly many places of interest that a lot of the time it's rather head-cracking to decide where to go first. So I'd checked out tourists' comments about the places. So far these are the places that most people are giving commendable comments =) And another thing is that you have to plan and arrange the order of the P.O.I. Yes it's true that it's not a problem at all to travel from one place to another but time cannot be wasted in traveling from places to places.

So the conclusion is, XD
I'm very excited !

babies, be strong!

Dear babies, do you know that I'm falling in love with the violin? But I need you guys very much.
Without you guys no matter how awesome the violin is, it won't produce melodious sounds.

I know I've not been taking care of you but....I really need you guys now!!

Please recover a.s.a.p.

I love you, my little fingers =)

You are so incredibly important to me =)